Alright, since I'm being a lazy narrator I'm going to give you a dialog from a conversation I had a couple days ago.
Uncle: Hey, so how do you like your new job at mama o's (its a seafood restaurant and I work as a waitress/hostess/cashier/people pleaser)?
Bre: I like it! It's hard and I'm always on my feet but I like it! I plan on going back this winter and then again in the summer.
Uncle: Well, I'm glad you like it but when are you doing to start looking for a job in your field?
Bre: My field?
Uncle: You know. Your degree.
Bre: Ohhhh that field. Ummm I don't plan on using that for awhile.
Uncle: What do you plan on doing after school?
Bre: Being a professional athlete.
Uncle: Have a back up plan.
I've been thinking a lot about this conversation. He means well. Absolutely. He just wants to make sure I do something significant with my life. But my question is "Who gets to decide what is and what isn't significant?" Is this significance based on money earned, money spent? is it based on whether or not I pay off my house? Is it based on how many children I bare or how many hours I work? WHAT IS THIS SIGNIFICANCE BASED OFF OF? and who gets to decide? is it society? is it my parents? is it the president, is it a higher power, is it the church? or is it me?
We get to decide for ourselves what is significant for us. That doesn't mean that I get to decide what is significant for you. That doesn't mean your parents can tell you you're a fuck up. We all should just go through life doing whatever makes our hearts sing. If you're hearts not singing and you're alright with that congrats. You're succeeding. But if your hearts not signing and you're not content with that then you need to make some changes. If we think what we've done is good enough (significant) then it is! Lets say I work my ass off and still never become a professional athlete.. First of all, fuck... that really sucks. But second of all that's still damn significant. I hypothetically spent years of my life working towards a goal that I set for myself. No back up plan needed. If i were to fail at my dream I'd have a new one to work towards. That may or may not use a degree. Who knows.
My plan for after college is that same as it is right now. Be happy. Do what I love. Inspire others. Be a friend. Represent the little guy. And a lot of other things. Right now, to me that sounds a whole lot like being a professional crossfit athlete that is well known. Crossfit makes me happy. I love it. My story and my spirit will inspire others. Of course I will be a friend. And I will represent the little guy with my underdog story.
By some change of heart that I 100% don't think will happen. I could decide that this is no longer my dream. That's just fine! What ever I end up doing I will be happy. I'm 100% sure of it.
I don't need people even loved ones telling me what I should be doing. I know what would be safe. I know what is stable. I know my dreams are far fetched, risky, and hard as shit to achieve but I'm going to do it.
Don't doubt me.
uncle scott if you're reading this i still love and am grateful that you care enough about me to make suggestions.
