So tonight as after I took a shower and was lounging around my room as i put lotion on and combed my hair i got to thinking about all the things I'd like to do. I have a lot on my bucket list. Not things like go to the Great Wall of China or parasail in the Mediterranean Sea things like I want to graduate with a bachelors degree. I want to challenge myself everyday. I want to marry the person of my dreams. I want to give to the community and be an example for my children and my peers. I want to do something substantial with my career. I'm not 100% sure what I want to do but what I'm sure of is that it will impact the people who are willing to be effected. I want to love someone so hard that they feel it even when I'm grouchy. I want to go to the crossfit games. I want to do well at the crossfit games. and If i don't make it that far I want to know that i tried my damnedest. I want to infect the world with my positive outlook. I want to write a book and be some stranger across the world's woman crush wednesday. I want to be inspirational. really fucking inspirational. because i needed someone like this when i was younger. Be the person you needed when you were younger.
There is so many things I want to do. Even more than I listed. None of these things are going to happen overnight. They all will take a lot of hard work, time, and discipline. But what keeps me going is the little bits of progress that I make each and everyday.
Each time I talk to a peer about impact vs. intent. Each time I ask someone if "Retarded" was really the word they meant to say. Each time I challenge myself to do something I'm scared of or not comfortable with. I'm growing. I'm making a difference in myself and in others. Each time I show someone that I care or look them in the eyes and tell them that I appreciate them and that I'm here for them I'm doing something substantial.
So I guess when I start thinking that all these ambitious goals are a little far fetched I look at what I'm already doing to be who I want to be. And that keeps me going.
I'm so blessed to have this kind of outlook. Thank you to everyone who makes me think and challenges me to try. <3
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